It's been a long while since I updated anything in here, nonetheless posted a journal entry. But I need to back into the swing of things and get my ass back into all my work. Between taking care of my son, and watching the house while my grandparents are away on vacation, and trying to get my commissions done, I can't remember to get on here and for a while I've been avoiding DA completely because it brought me no joy. I'm starting to come back a little here and there.

I can't believe Sora is already going to be 3 months old. That boy has grown soooo much since I brought him home. But our little family really does at this point consist of just myself and him. I'm waiting though for my man to come sweep me off my feet. He'll be here soon enough, I just have to be patient. That's what he told me, and I will be. In the mean time I will keep myself busy, be a good girl and do what I have to do.

I do hurt some nights, feeling alone and empty, but I know that void will be filled soon enough. I realized mistakes of the past, a decision that was wrongly made all because I had made a promise. One that caused me a lot of pain in the end because the other broke their promise to me. I knew then I was making the wrong decision, and I know it even more so now. But all the same, the past cannot be rewritten and I have to live with my mistakes at that time. And now I may get a chance to fix my mistakes at least to some extent and be happy with myself, my life, my family.

Life isn't easy, but you have to look to the little things, find joy in the smallest of things. I do that now whether it be talking to my best friends even though I never get to see them. Hoping to eventually leave and get to go somewhere better for me and my son where I can spread my wings. I can make plan, plot things out, but that never means they'll go that way. But I can always pray and hope for a brighter day tomorrow.

Blessed Be!